Saturday, June 12, 2010
I Can't Take My Eyes Off Of You...
My breath caught in my throat and I stood there in the doorway, wide-eyed and slackjawed.
"Em, you look fantastic. I've missed you so much," Michael breathed, taking in my dolled up appearance.
I shifted uncomfortably on my feet, one hand against the doorframe and the other nervously twirling a section of hair.
"Thanks," I mumbled, "but what are you doing here? I'm sorry if I sound rude, but I'm expecting someone any minute so please make it quick."
I felt my cheeks grow hot as Michael's eyes scanned my face and he looked at me with such honesty and hurt in his eyes. Despite how firm I was in my decision to leave him, I hadn't realized that a part of me did miss the comfort and familiarity of being in his presence.
"You wouldn't take my calls and I just wanted to talk to you and make sure you're okay. I was worried about you...but obviously you're fine and in a rush, so I guess I better go," Michael answered quietly, taking another lingering glance at my face and taking in the dress I wore, as he stepped away from the doorway.
I sighed, feeling a seed of guilt and another feeling I couldn't quite identify growing in my stomach. I stood there silently, watching him walk away.
"Michael, wait," I called after him,"maybe we can grab coffee or something later in the week and catch up. I'll text you, okay? Right now just isn't a good time."
"Yeah, sure, Em, that would be great! I won't keep you any longer, I'm just glad to see you're okay," Michael replied, waving over his shoulder and breaking into a smile. He turned towards me one more time as he opened his car door and got inside, and it broke my heart a little to see the look on his face. It was a mixture of pain and hope, and I realized in that moment just how much I had hurt him by leaving the way I did.
I remained in the doorway, watching him buckle his seatbelt and start the car, all the while his eyes never leaving my face. The thought suddenly and startlingly crossed my mind that I needed to run after him and throw my arms around him and tell him how sorry I was and how much I hated myself for hurting him. I was so lost in these thoughts and busy watching Michael backing out of his parking spot that I scarcely noticed another car pulling into the lot and parking.
My heart skipped a beat when the driver got out and I realized it was Eric. He was just as gorgeous as I remembered, perhaps even more so. I couldn't help but stare at him as he ambled up the sidewalk. He flashed me one of his dazzling grins and I could practically feel myself melt. In that instant, all thoughts of Michael completely left my mind.